A new chapter

I came across this quote again today. One that has also inspired me two years ago when I decided to finally make some changes in my life. Not that life wasn’t good for me. It actually was. I loved so much about it. My apartment, my amazing friends, even work. And still there was something inside me knowing that it wasn’t me. So I kept searching. And hoping for some light bulb moment where suddenly my true purpose was revealed to me. If only something would change and then I would just know…

But the light bulb moment was when it suddenly clicked and I realised that ‚I‘ needed to change. That I couldn’t continue doing what I was doing and expect change to happen. Just like that. I couldn’t remain who I was and do what I was doing.

Obviously it didn’t need to be such a drastic change. But that is what it turned out to be. I quit my job and decided to leave Hannover. Not knowing what would come next. I always thought I need to first know what I want and what is next to then decide to make changes. But in that moment I realised that my first decision needed to be to let go of the old first to make room for something new. That I first needed to decide that I didn’t want to be where I was. And then to trust that change always brings new opportunities. That instead of waiting in my comfort zone where I felt no pressure to change, I was now free but also in some way forced to make a decision. It was the typical “one door closes, another one opens” situation. It is so true. Life just continues. It doesn’t stop because you don’t know what is next. I even think you will start to see clearer because you let go of expectations and the direction you think you need to go.

And this is what happened to me. The idea of what I wanted to do next just started to come to me intuitively. And it was something that before I would have totally rejected as something I could never do. Before I may have dreamt of it but never thought I should, could or would be capable of doing something like that. But I was. I decided to take time off for however long and hike through the Rocky Mountains for at least six months. And it was the best decision of my life! What an incredible journey.

And what a valuable lesson. To never be scared of change. To know that with change come new opportunities. That you yourself have to change to make a difference and not wait for change from outside. To leave your comfort zone. And to always continue on your journey of becoming you.

And what a journey I am on…! It just continues. And evolves. And where I am at a point again that I needed to change. So I decided to jump. Again. And here I am. At a new chapter of my life. And I’m happy to share my journey with you!