๐๐๐ฟ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ผ๐น๐ฑ ๐บ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ฒ๐ณ๐!
And then start developing a ๐ฝ๐ผ๐๐ถ๐๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ต๐ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐น๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ต๐ถ๐ฝ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐บ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ๐.
When I decided last year that I wanted to start my own business I was asked for the first time what my relationship with money was. A question I never have asked myself before. But once I did I realised that it indeed is an absolute valuable question.
Asking myself this question I found that I have been lucky in a way that I never had any really negative perceptions when it came to money. Again my upbringing played a big role in that. We werenโt rich but it always seemed abundant. Because I learnt that value and pleasure werenโt measured in possessions, that you had to work for what you wanted to afford and that you could only afford what you had, that it was important to have some buffer for emergencies but that otherwise it would come and go and therefore was to be enjoyed. Not matter how little I had later in my adult life I always felt it was enough and that I would make do somehow. To the point where I even played down the importance of money for me, like I didnโt really need it, that I was okay with however little I had or made. Which of course is not true. As we do need money to live, to be secure, and to be independent and self-sufficient.
๐ฆ๐ผ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ด๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ ๐ฑ๐ผ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ?
Is it never enough? Or like you are never being able to afford what you need or want? Are you feeling forever in debt or behind in paying bills? Or like only the others are lucky to have enough money? That it is not fair? Or even to the point where you have experienced the vicious side of money where a conflict over money caused a relationship or friendship turn ugly or even break up families?
๐ข๐ฟ ๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐น๐ถ๐บ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐บ๐ฒ?
Because when I think of what my relationship with money is then what comes to mind is not worry or stress about how much I have. But definitely discomfort when it comes to defining the value of my work or experiences in regards to money and then to actually have to ask someone to pay me! Like โno, no itโs okay, itโs fine, Iโm happy to just help youโ. As if asking for money meant my help wasnโt genuine? Where was I drawing the line between actual help and my work? Why would I feel bad being paid for work that I was doing?
Iโm still trying to find out if it is my โIโm better at giving than receivingโ? Or is it my inability to ask others for something? Or is it me generally just feeling like that in that moment it doesnโt matter and Iโm just happy to help or work? Or is it actually having something to do with not feeling worthy of it?
I need to figure that out! And definitely give more thought to money!! Because it is important in life. It is the ๐ฐ๐๐ฟ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ถ๐ป๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ผ๐บ. To living the life I really want. To living it on my own terms.
As part of the mentorship Iโm currently going through they suggested a little burning ritual to let go of old money beliefs.
And it felt so liberating! To actually reflect on my relationship with money. To write down my old story with money. And to then burn it. In the snow by the wayโฆ
To then commit to my new relationship with money. Where I was confident in believing in myself to be worthy of money and that my time and efforts are valuable. Where I would step up and make that a goal of mine to ensure that I made money part of my priorities with my vision of my life in focus! I CAN DO THIS!
It is going to be a real journey of changeโฆbut Iโm committed! And this was a great first step!
